Why don't let me be the one?

Most people of our age get upset about having to:
pass their tests,
finish mountains of tutorials,
win medals,
adapt to the system,
build healthy social relationships
aceing minor common tests, promos, prelims and eventually the As,
cope with heavy ccas,
decide where to eat, shit and shop,
deal with love and relationship and all that rara stuff,
money for tuition, for buying beautiful clothes or jus to plainly go shopping.

But we forgot that such problems are not significant problems when it comes to life and death. Unless you're experiencing all that were ever mentioned at the same time and maybe something more terrible than that. Sometimes, some people just make such a big fuss out of problems that arent even classified as problems at all.

Is not being affected wrong?
Is trying so hard not being affected terribly wrong?
Does it mean there is no pain just because one doesnt show the pain?
Does not asking equals not caring, not concerning?
Is not crying being cold?
Is being cold wrong?
Sometimes we just dont want to show, right?

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One event down, 2 more to go.

This has been a fucking terrible week for me. Besides exhausted physically ala my fellow tkd mates, I'm mentally and emotionally exhausted too. Things have happened just too fast and too sudden for us to take and I don't know, I seriously don't know when I haven't had the time since to even sit down and think it through.

I don't want to be taken for granted anymore. And instead of trying so hard to look for someone to tell things to in hope to solve whatever is at hand, I've decided to solve them myself, one by one. Not saying is not because of not trusting but rather of too trusting and concern.

I will make it like I always do. I hope I will not be affected in the end.
Meanwhile, let me be alone for a while.

Just kindly leave me alone to get out of this pain for a while, thanks.