Conquering Defeat.

We should live in the present for the future.

This was Teresa's msn nick, apparently on the issue discussed this afternoon during pattern training. We talked about dropping subjects, continuing subjects that we flunked like no tomorrow, and the cost-benefit analysis of it all.

At one point in life, I thought success was all and failure was hard to do. Yet when there really came such a time, I came to realise that its actually not that hard to accept defeat. At the end of the day, I reap what I sow and reap nothing when I don't sow at all. The hardest thing to accept is to realise that you haven't put in the effort to even try to win at all.

Meritocracy never sound more cruel than the day you realise you're at the failing end. At another point in my life, I forgot the way my society values hardwork and the way I used to keep on fighting. I forgot how I used to love knowledge and how I went beyond my limits.

Luckily, I didn't remember that too late.

The thing is, I do not want to drop my subjects, at least for now, even when my grades are really atrocious. I just don't want to waste putting 1.5 years of my life into something and not getting anything out of it in the end, when I know that I can iff I've put in the necessary.

If you've lost your way like I did, its never too late to be back on track again.
I believe I can conquer my defeat and for that,

we should always move on.