#14. feAr.
I must say a word about fear. It is life's only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy... It begins in your mind, always.... Doubt meets disbelief and disbelief tries to push it out. But disbelief is a poorly armed foot soldier. Doubt does away with it with little trouble. You become anxious. Reason comes to do battle for you. You are reassured. Reason is fully equipped with the latest weapons technology....
Fear next turns fully to your body, which is already aware something terribly wrong is going on... Quickly, you make rash decisions. You dismiss your last allies: hope and trust. There, you've defeated yourself. Fear, which is but an impression, has triumphed over you. The matter is difficult to put into words. For fear, real fear, such as shakes you to your foundation, such as you feel when you are brought face to face with your moral end, nestles in your memory like a gangrene: it seeks to rot everything, even the words with which to speak of it. .. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don't, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you.
Fear next turns fully to your body, which is already aware something terribly wrong is going on... Quickly, you make rash decisions. You dismiss your last allies: hope and trust. There, you've defeated yourself. Fear, which is but an impression, has triumphed over you. The matter is difficult to put into words. For fear, real fear, such as shakes you to your foundation, such as you feel when you are brought face to face with your moral end, nestles in your memory like a gangrene: it seeks to rot everything, even the words with which to speak of it. .. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don't, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you.
Yann Martel.
Fear, how apt.
Today is a brand new start for me. Me, my tutorials, and my Spapers. :)
I'll work hard.
Today is a brand new start for me. Me, my tutorials, and my Spapers. :)
I'll work hard.
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