#51. Reflections

" The real purpose of running isn't to win the race. It is to test the limits of the human heart. Not faster, stronger or higher than anyone else, but just, faster, stronger, higher."

- Mrs Lim Lai Cheng

This post was supposed to come yesterday since it was the last day of the school term, the semester and J1. Its one whole 10 months in a blink of the eye. Pain, laughter, conflicts, happy moments that have evolved into memories. Before all, I just want to make some reflections :)

Its amazing and even terrifying how faster the year has passed and I guess you will agree with me that mugging for O'levels still seem like yesterday and yet the reality comes with us moving on to J2, finished June Common Test and even the once petrified Promotional Exams.

I could still vividly remember myself making my own decision for TJC instead of VJC which most thought I will go into. Like I still say now, TJ is one place I love and I knew right from the start its the school for me. From the very moment I step in there, there's just this feeling which I still cannot describe now, the feeling of The Right One.

The start was a tough one for me when I chose to be special to embark on a new journey on my very own. I was anxious, afraid yet excited in the new school and somehow I don't want to make the same mistake again. And I was glad, I didnt afterall. All along I thought I would have a difficult time making new friends but I survived well, making friends whom I could share my feelings, my past, pain and laughter. I learnt to share, to care, to feel for my friends, all these I didnt acquire before. Also, I learnt to be proud of who I am, where I come from. I'm proud of Junyuan, I'm proud to be nurtured in Junyuan. And I'm glad I made her proud.

Acadamic wise, TJC and the happenings of 2005 taught me alot too. From the many-times top pupil to the no. 195th in ranking today, I learnt to let go, move on, be content with whatever I've now yet at the same time aim for the heights. I share with people what I learnt, I laugh with people at my mistakes and work hard to eliminate them.

Besides, I've also learnt to work better with people, observe whats around, tame my behaviour. And also to go beyond my limits, physically and emotionally or even mentally. Overall, I feel like a better person. :)

But I could have done better too if

1) I have been a noiser girl in class,

2) a more committed member of Scico,

3) a more __________ exco member of tjctkd,

4) open up more to people,

5) try accepting new people into my life,

6) meet more of the c&k esp cakes,

7) mug harder,

8) love more.

But for now, I'm a happy girl like I always say.

With the Passion, Purpose, Drive, I'll be a better person.