#Lost Count. That
Admit it, I'm sad, really sad.
I don't know what has gotten into me, I know I shouldn't be like this but I cannot help. Everyone has been telling me its okay and I'm gonna make it but I know it wasn't going to be like this. You wouldn't be fine too if you were in my shoes let me tell you. But apparently, nobody seems to understand.
And the saddest thing is nobody seems to understand; I just can't find someone I can turn to and who will understand how I feel. Its ok, it really is?
Its not pain, but rather disappointment. And I feel cheated, very cheated and nobody seems to care. It is, unfair but I too know there's nth I can do, not at all. This is the system, this is what I chose, here is my responsibility and I've to bear it all....
I was wondering if I could just not wake up tomorrow morning and all the mornings thereafter. No, I'm not having sucidal thoughts and I'm not so stupid to do so. Afterall, this wasn't the most painful that has ever happen. But i just wish and hope this will end very soon...
I dont' want to think anymore, but can I? Maybe not until 30 Dec 2005 when my fate will be sealed.
I don't know what has gotten into me, I know I shouldn't be like this but I cannot help. Everyone has been telling me its okay and I'm gonna make it but I know it wasn't going to be like this. You wouldn't be fine too if you were in my shoes let me tell you. But apparently, nobody seems to understand.
And the saddest thing is nobody seems to understand; I just can't find someone I can turn to and who will understand how I feel. Its ok, it really is?
Its not pain, but rather disappointment. And I feel cheated, very cheated and nobody seems to care. It is, unfair but I too know there's nth I can do, not at all. This is the system, this is what I chose, here is my responsibility and I've to bear it all....
I was wondering if I could just not wake up tomorrow morning and all the mornings thereafter. No, I'm not having sucidal thoughts and I'm not so stupid to do so. Afterall, this wasn't the most painful that has ever happen. But i just wish and hope this will end very soon...
I dont' want to think anymore, but can I? Maybe not until 30 Dec 2005 when my fate will be sealed.
recollects @ 10/20/2005 06:15:00 PM
1 Comments:
hey -auntie-
you can always call me up although i am having o levels now. just spit out everything out of your heart. i am reluctant to be your listener although i am not a good person to give comments and advices. =D cheer up ah. i am always a call away. hahas!
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