#126. ' Peer Motivation '

I've been feeling pretty down for quite a while since. Despite several attempts of refusing to admit it, gobbling lotsa lotsa ice cream and even to speak out, I still have yet felt better. I guess partially the cause is still unknown. Sometimes, you just don't know why suddenly you feel some way right. I guess this is it cos I reckon its PMS cos it shouldnt be here yet, haha.

The thing is, I'm disgusted. bPeer Motivation. Oh yes? All that load of bullshit. I wonder if I was that much an irritation ack in secondary school also. Haha. Its not that I'm getting paranoid or smth but as much as I want to stay unaffected, I cannot. I mean, you do will be influenced when the situation around you is like very shitey? K, I just cannot replace that with a better with my limited vocab.

I'm just very very very sick. I'm sick and tired of telling people, 'nah its okay, own time own stuff' when I'm kinda affected, eventually. I just need someone true. I don't know, maybe I'm then the fake one.

Maybe its time for my story's 男主角 to appear so that he can lend me a shoulder and give me some warmth and reassurance in this cold, fake world. Hais.

On a little note, the hols is just 2 days away with lotsa activities packed in. I should be happy that school is out. For once in so long, I love being home.

Oh yes, Bryan just made it for the Star Idol Finals and I'm very happy cos I get to see him on TV again. Haha, if only my future 男主角 can be just half as good looking as he is, hoho. I'll faint I tell you.

Goodnight everyone.