Holiday Blues.
Its a beautiful Thursday night. Parents are out watching 歌台 and iTunes is shuffling all my favourite songs. I do have a lot to complete for tonight - HwaChong's summary, 05prelim's AQ and my dear complex tutorial 4; but on a wonderful night like this, those things must wait. Yet I'm feeling guilty wasting 2 whole days doing only 1.5 papers, 1 year of mcqs and maybe 1 sucky summary.
I was surfing Friendster just now, saw lots of new photos- outings', classes'etc. I feel sour whenever I see things like this cos o6 is never likethat. Even if we did, its never a complete thing; don't talk about the chalets or supposed birthday celebrations which are done half hearted and superficially.
I've a whole class of people with big inspirations. Scholarships, overseas universities, wellknown organisations' careers, internships, you name it, they want and can want it. I don't mean they're not good if fact they're things that not everyone can aim for. Sometimes I just feel like I'm too ordinary in comparison when I don't want to achieve so much in my mere 18 years of life, or maybe when I don't get to achieve that much.
Just like what I told Lum a few months ago: 如果十年后要结婚摆喜酒，看看今天班上的那些人，还真不知道该请谁来好-那个还会记得，那个还会bother,有时候我还真的不知道。Everyone says pre-u life was good and is gonna be the best times of one's life, I wonder why mine turned out this way. Sometimes I wonder what I'll really remember of today five years down the road- maybe its the bits and pieces of tkd, the everything that we went through, maybe its the pathetic HK trip that almost bonded the clique. But isn't it at all pathetic that this is everything that I were to remember? There wouldn't be anything about o6 definitely; only if there is something to remember about when all you do is go to school, study and go back home every single day.
Oh yes, maybe I will remember how the class and the caring tutors inflicted tonnes of stress and pressure so much so that I dread going to school every single morning.
Lucky me, school will be out in less than 2 mths time. Till then I'll finally be able to stop worrying about not playing my part at the class rep to do some class bonding.
Oh maybe you will think that I'm complaining too much to appreciate the things in life. But I still think I've a relatively sad life. HAHA, and sad people need to mug now.
Goodnight everyone.
I was surfing Friendster just now, saw lots of new photos- outings', classes'etc. I feel sour whenever I see things like this cos o6 is never likethat. Even if we did, its never a complete thing; don't talk about the chalets or supposed birthday celebrations which are done half hearted and superficially.
I've a whole class of people with big inspirations. Scholarships, overseas universities, wellknown organisations' careers, internships, you name it, they want and can want it. I don't mean they're not good if fact they're things that not everyone can aim for. Sometimes I just feel like I'm too ordinary in comparison when I don't want to achieve so much in my mere 18 years of life, or maybe when I don't get to achieve that much.
Just like what I told Lum a few months ago: 如果十年后要结婚摆喜酒，看看今天班上的那些人，还真不知道该请谁来好-那个还会记得，那个还会bother,有时候我还真的不知道。Everyone says pre-u life was good and is gonna be the best times of one's life, I wonder why mine turned out this way. Sometimes I wonder what I'll really remember of today five years down the road- maybe its the bits and pieces of tkd, the everything that we went through, maybe its the pathetic HK trip that almost bonded the clique. But isn't it at all pathetic that this is everything that I were to remember? There wouldn't be anything about o6 definitely; only if there is something to remember about when all you do is go to school, study and go back home every single day.
Oh yes, maybe I will remember how the class and the caring tutors inflicted tonnes of stress and pressure so much so that I dread going to school every single morning.
Lucky me, school will be out in less than 2 mths time. Till then I'll finally be able to stop worrying about not playing my part at the class rep to do some class bonding.
Oh maybe you will think that I'm complaining too much to appreciate the things in life. But I still think I've a relatively sad life. HAHA, and sad people need to mug now.
Goodnight everyone.
recollects @ 8/10/2006 08:54:00 PM
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