At the end of the day....

all I want is to just seriously get myself into the ideal course.

whatever the results may be.

I think I need a lot of luck on that.

3 good days. Haha.

I've been asking myself so many times a day...

拿不到 A 怎么办？

2 weeks; 噩耗

虽然是心理有所准备，但这样的消息还是晴天霹雳。

嗨~ 人生啊，人生...

就是如此的残忍...

Presenting CG 06/05:

For the 1/9 of my life, the moments of laughter, sadness and joy,

for the chapter that's closing soon,

an early thank you (:

call me HUA WAN TING.

Woosh. I'm sooooo tired.

Today was a really short day followed by a 5.5 hours but not very productive mugging session with CAO HUI YAN at the library. Managed to practise abit of SHM for fm, then one terrible AJ econs mcq paper from the all jcs 2004 book i borrowed today and then a few essay plans. I think I'm really on my diminishing returns. Oh man, this cannot happen!!!!

Tomorrow's another mugging day with THE PIG at bedok library. FM FM FM all the way!!!

I think I better go off to do another mcq so that my breaded chicken can be digested. Oh yes, SHU XIONG is so funny today. Haha, insider joke(:

Yawwwnnnnnsss.....

相逢

"我一点也不心急，因为我们都需要准备，两个人的相遇或许是偶发的，但唯有双方都准备好了，相遇才有意思，不然就是相逢，也无法解读其中的深意。"

Que Sera, Sera.

After literally crying to mechanics last night, the morning came as a rather uneasy one for me. First, my tummy was bloated from the previous night's cupnoodle which I, in my own way, tried to brighten up my spirits after pig unwittingly didn't reply my msg. Next my right ear is hurting like no tomorrow. In spite of that, i'm actually quite glad that I'm feeling much better already, physically or emotionally.

Sometimes, i still find it quite hard to do. Although efforts to indulged in academics to put my mind off things that i've no power over, has indeed lighten quite a fair bit of my worries, its still not the best method of it all. Afterall, craming knowledge and doing papers cannot ease my worries over the grades that never seem to improve or the questions that i can never do correctly, if they haven't been adding on to them.

Its quite depressing sometimes, and yesterday was definitely one of those. You work hard, work hard and harder, and at the end, there's this glass ceiling seemingly mocking; is this the best you can do, unfortunately this is the best that you can do. I'm not supposed to believe that; yet succumbing to it can be ever so easy.

Luckily, if it wasn't for the hand that brother gave me which was ever so reassuring, i guess my past would have surfaced again last night.

Sometimes you and i still need that shoulder.

But for now I still have to be very strong, I know that. (:

Life goes on ...

Frequencies.

The day was spent at KS' place with the tasty people, despite not being in my most productive mode, I managed to complete most that was on my agenda after deciding to give the movie a miss. Little sacrifices for greater good, I kept reminding myself that. And luckily, Lum and I are gonna start our weekday study sessions next week, hais, I really hope something can be done then to improve my current grades which seems like an obstacle so big that I can never cross over and shine.

Actually I like it this way. I like it when all you have to do is cram cram and cram more knowledge into your head, and do do do do do do papers, until maybe I feel like banging my head against the wall. At the very least, I keep a lot of things away from my mind. I don't get worrying about what that I cannot change. I pretend not to know what I already knew.

*

"Its the same theory as in sound frequencies, you only hear the frequencies the human ear permits. What you cannot see, doesn't mean it doesn't exist. If you get to see everything, then our world will be a messy place to live in. Our eye works in that similar way. You cannot see it because your body doesn't allow you to. And my best explanation for it is, this is how the body works."

-ThePhysicsTutor.

And its so true isn't it?
Maybe this is the way we protect ourselves, from knowing too much.

And maybe thats what I should do, to save myself from all that pain.

Day 30; Never ever give up hope.

I was so darn happy I tell you.

Cos' for the 1ST time in my whole freaking college life...

I PASSED GP!!!!

And its not through rounding off.

(: (: (: