#13. Human Curiousity.

Its human curiousity.

And I start questioning.
Who am I? Why am I here? What is my purpose? What will my future be like?

Am i waiting to go to the island too? Is the island what I'm studying so hard everyday for? Will I wake up one day to discover the island is all a lie and I've wasted my whole life for an aim which never exist at all?

Did you start questioning too?

The Island that we watch last night was very good, pretty initial effects and mind provoking storyline. :) The above are just some questions that kept running through my mind throughout the movie. For me, good movies must be able to provoke and induce ideas in its viewers, and this is another one besides the many that I love a lot, like Constantine.

I'm supposed to publicise this place tommorow, 01 August 2005. At least, I thought that is when I should be, however my new blogskin is still on the way. Very much, on the way. I guess I've to put off again, until I've the time to complete it.

Another Economics test tomorrow. Sian!

Regarding the camp at TNS this coming october, many have already received calls for their respective posts except me and XY, argh! I want so badly to go.

还想和你看北海道的雪祭
还想陪你走遍这世界风景
但
你消失的天空我凝视了好久
在飘雪的气候
脑海重复着最后拥抱你的镜头
期待再见面时候
更深刻的悸动

#12.The Island

what a day wasted.
I'm very tired, shall get back to my tutorials and write some more later in the day.

Good Morning.

#11. What is Love?

:)

This is Love.

#10. Red Eye.

Why make dirty what is beautiful, spoil what is perfect?
Love. That was Father Martin's answer.

My right eye is freaking red right now, lucky it wasn't sore.

Wasn't here for yesterday cos the day was too long and time didn't allow me so. The Business Venture was Okay, at least we breaked-even, although with very little profits. But you should have seen the crowd that came gushing towards our stall even before we open. Haha, "Nike Sale", they call it.

Vectors test today was terrible. I was like alternating between Q1 and 2 (there were only 2 questions) all the 45 minutes and ended up only completed Q1(ii), cos I completely couldn't do them at all. 5 marks and I give all my thanks.

I want to sleep, argh. Integration is so damn difficult to do. I got a headache trying them this afternoon while mugging with Van in college, while waiting for die of course.

Life of Pi is really a very good book !!! :) Haha, and I'll be meeting Matthias for dinner tomorrow, pretty excited though. :) It's pretty hilarious how I always confuse myself over Matthias and Mathias. Haha.

Alright, I need to do integration cos I'm too tired already.
Good luck to my eye and goodnight.

#9. Life of Pi

I think it feels very good, very very good to have someone to love and someone who loves.
But apparently I'm not feeling good, haha.

我会买油条给你吃，吃到你老了，吃到你牙齿都泛黄了，再也吃不了油条为止。
This quote seemingly sound very familiar, but I couldn't really remember.

I borrowed a new book from college library this afternoon, apparently I didn't know the school library has such a great collection of good books until now. :) I can save a lot.

Business Entreprise Day tomorrow, all will be well. :)

When you've suffered a great deal in life, each additional pain is both unbearable and trifling. My life is like a memento mori painting from European art; there is always a grinning skull at my side to remind me of the folly og human ambition. I mock this skull. I look at it and say, "You've got the wrong move fellow. You may not believe in life, but I don't believe in death. Move on!" The skull snickers and moves ever closer, but that doesn't surprise me.

The reason death sticks so closely to life isnt biological necessity - it's envy. Life is so beautiful that death has fallen in love with it, a jealous, possessive love that grabs at what it can. But life leaps over oblivion lightly, losing only a thing or two of no importance, and gloom is but the passing shadow of a cloud.

-Life of Pi

No, I won't remember. :)

#7. Anyway, Thank you.

I want to read this book. One Hundred Years of Solitude.

Today was really a long one despite school ending at 1330hrs. Econs lecture was really bad as I tried so badly, probably two-third of the whole time trying to keep my eyes open. I was 2 rows right in front of the lecturer, that was why.

There's a GP presentation tomorrow. Surprisingly, even though we were often encouraged to speak up such a high academic level, this is only the 2nd time I'm out and speaking to the class; first time with the 06s to be accurate.

This 03 Promos compre paper that I'm doing now is so damn hard. Argh!

Anyway, I was so mad that I didn't want to say anything when LF said that Zaobao is all crap and ST is the best. I mean, yea ST is good but why bring down my favourite paper?! Kandangs, stupid Kandangs.

My Retro Lao Die took off his specs after all that peer pressure?! Hurhur :)

Oh, a summary and an application question to go.
Cya around and goodnight.

By the way, thank you you. :)

#6.The Time Traveller's Wife.

CLARE: It's hard being left behind. I wait for Henry, not knowing where he is, wondering if he's okay. It's hard to be the one who stays. I keep myself busy. Time goes faster that way.

I go to sleep alone, and wake up alone. I take walks. I work until I'm tired. I watch the wind play with the trash that's been under the snow all winter. Everything seems simple until you think about it. Why is love intensified by absence?

Long ago, men went to sea, and women waited for them, standing on the edge of the water, scanning the horizon for the tiny ship. Now I wait for Henry. He vanishes unwillingly, without warning. I wait for him. Each moment that I wait feels like a year, an eternity. Each moment is as slow and transparent as glass.
-The Time Traveller's Wife.

I finished the book last night after chionging it for like 2 hours. Finally. It was very nice, very very nice. I could hardly put down the book after finishing it. Perhaps, you should read it too. :)

Yawns. I complete quite a bit of work down at MPL today. So glad. (: Besides, I'm feeling better too; relative to yesterday. Was it the girls, or was everything all in the mind?

There's school again tomorrow, and I guess I've got to sleep soon else I'll be darn tired tomorrow. School is always an irony; love and hate all in my head.

I cannot help not being a kopster for this quote of Katherine's is too great to be unquoted:
现在要懂得珍惜眼前人，不要因为过去而失去对自己现在而言最重要的人。

I've got a new book from the library which I forgot the title. Haha. HP? I shall read it later, much later. I want to slowly savoury the book, bit by bit. :) Good things, we always try to make them last. Good night.

Quote with courteosy: http://white-heaven.blogdrive.com.

#5. So Lost.

Mugged an afternoon alone at bucks today. It was pretty constructive with 2 chapters of Physics done. :) I actually realised Gravitation wasn't that hard, afterall I've read it for like 3 times? Ya, but I guess I still need a little help from ECKoh this monday to clear some doubts.

Rene joined me afterthat where we're supposed to have dinner together. The atmosphere was abit dull with only the two of us since all the others were apparently not free. We had porridge and Chinese ramen at Ding Feng Tang, where the food was edible though ain't that delicious.

Actually, I wasn't on my best mood today, I don't know why. With Rene, I don't seem to have all that much topics to talk about like I always had. It didn't get any better even after I got home, instead a headache strike me, making matters worse. I didn't even type much in that much anticipated conversation. Perhaps it was partially due to what Van had said last night.

Something is seriously wrong. So wrong that I can't even find the cause.

Have been surfing through GettyImages for the past half an hour, those pictures dipicting freedom makes me feel like flying too.

I wanna fly. I believe I can fly.

LeAnn Rimes' tunes always got me emotional, since god knows when.

Got to get to Econs notes. Cya around; Goodnight.

#4. FaMily.

I'm so tired. Blah.

Suki-sushing with the clique was fun and funny. We were laughing more than eating through the an hour course of our meal. Van and ZX are really a cute pair of very good friends and my very lovely Die and Niang. :)

I wanna sleep now. Going to NL tomorrow. :)
Goodnights world. Shall blog more when I'm ready.

#3.TummyAche; Don's Personal Pie.

Two paragraphs through GP journal. Not bad.

I was pretty emotional today. I was feeling stress partially, I supposed. Mrs Lim showed us the statistics of the JCT 05 this morning during assembly when we were asked to assemble in the Audi. All I could remember about the presentation was 3 Cs for content subjects and GP pass for S-paper requirements. I'm BCCDE. 1 subject away and 2 months to promotionals.

Then I was guilt-sicken. I didn't prepare the Integration tutorials when almost the entire class had them finished. Mentoring session was equally bad when I didn't prepare anything at all cos I didn't manage to receive the ppt slides despite the kids having sent umpteen times. I felt like a fool cos I couldnt answer a lot of their questions. Integration and Assimillation in Indonesia, even though I'm a half Indonesian, but WTH?!

I thought I was depressed enough.
Lucky, things got better at home like they have always been. :) Watched Superstar, mugged abit, had a bathe and read. It feels so great unlike at school.

National Libary is reopening tomorrow. YAY!
Shall get back to work and catch some sleep thereafter. Goodnight.

#2. Ethnic, oh so Ethnic.

Its just another day. Oh well.


Me, XiaoShan, ChengPei; so ethnic.

So, we commemorated Racial Harmony in college today by clading in ethnic clothings despite the actual date being tomorrow. Although the response from the college wasn't that good, a quarter of the school managed to turn up in the expected clothing. Cool. :) Btw, this picture looks pretty bad cos it was taken in the audi (with no flash) seconds before the performance and teachers by our sides.

Civics was replaced by Mass Civics in which the HC & MSC boys put up a cultural play cum quiz. It was pretty good I must say although the Malay strumming and singing wasn't as good as those in JY. The peak of the entire 45 minutes session should have been where Mr Hassim won himself the third best dressed tutor of the day. All Hail to CG 19/05 with such a handsome Civics Tutor. :)

College's pride then came with a presentation on his conquerance of Mount Everest this June. Stefen Chow (reads: Stepfen Chow; if you get me), graduating class of 1998, if I'm not wrong. He's was one of those most inspiring talks I could say; Passion. In his words, he reminded us of the importance of the process, to overcome the physical barrier of our dreams - to fantasize, and to have passion - passion for your dream. As we looked through the slides which showcases the months and years of perspiration for just that 20 minutes of glory, the breathtaking scenery way up Everest, I put myself in his shoes. I dream of myself coming back to Bedok South Road, perhaps 10 or even 20 years from now, standing just right on that auditorium stage I've never had a chance to stand on, addressing the juniors about my dream.

I want to come back one day to tell of my juniors how I scaled by physical barriers and circled the world. I want to one day tell them I dreamt to walk to world, and now I've the entire world under my feet. I know I can because, I've the Passion for it.

I was MSNing with ZX just now halfway through this post. His LOST nick made me so curious that I decided to IM him. Then we chatted for a while, discussed abit. Who at our age have yet to feel such a emotion? Very few I suppose. Regarding all that he decide to release, I feel so wrong. I mean, his method seemed so wrong, seemed so 2004. I don't know, all I felt was like I want to help him, for I take him as a good friend. Because I knew how hard it was without guidance and advice, so I want to help. Or at least, I tried to help.

But what I didn't reveal was how down I was feeling when I was on the conversation.

Integration & vectors tuts. await me. Goodnight virtual world.

#1 Brand New Start

I need a brand new start. And here, it is.

I stopped at my dashboard for a while just now, unlike how quickly I would select my blog to write a post usually. I've 4 blogs in total, excluding this one, and the shared one by caKes. I was thinking for a while, which to delete and which not to for almost 3 out of the 4 were almost abandoned.

In the end, I decided not to at all. Afterall, things do stay in my mind even if I try to erase whatever is in black and white. Valuable lessons learnt, should be kept and be mindful.

I've been hooked onto this book (The Time Traveller's Wife) lately. Read it on my way to school, hid it under my table during a tutorial, carry it to sleep. You name it, I've done it. And so after waking up from a nap that I fall into while reading, here I'm with a terrible headache. Tutorials neatly laying across my tabletop, my mind naked, lost in an scene of the past, like Henry the Time Traveller. Then I know, I need a brand new start.

But I'm not going to disclose this place until about August or so, when I will close down theothersite.

Some people, me included, believe that punk is just the most recent manifestation of this, this spirit, this feeling, you know, that things aren't right and that in fact things are so wrong that the only thing they could do is to say Fuck It, over and over again, really loud, until someone stops us.

I'm not exactly into punk, and I guess as far as I'm sane concern, I wouldn't be. But I do reach out to hard rock whenever I'm feeling low. Quiet moments just seems to drown me further into whatever I'm sinking deep. Fcuk.

Many things in life are beyond your control, but definitely not beyond your limits.

I love Group PEs taken by Naomi. After last week's conquerance of the drain along those private estates, we were made to do part of the adventure tower and monkey bars today. Although I hate her at moments when she made us run as if we never run before, I find her PE sessions rather meaningful. Meaningful indeed. I felt a lesson learnt at the end of every PE period with her. Lessons about life, perserverance, going beyond your limits - knowledge so real and useful that you can never acquire in a lecture hall.

Then I realise perhaps you too isn't the one.

Gotta get back to gravitation tutorials. Goodnight.