#28. Happy Teachers' Day.

Hello, Happy Teachers' Day to any reader here who happenes to teach, though I suspect there wouldn't be.

Gonna go back to school tomorrow for extra lessons. And its Teachers' Day!
Dear Sirs and Madams, you guys need a break too right? argh!

the dearie comp seems abit haywire, if i'm not back for long, it means it has given up on me.
so dear ahbui, accept my frenchfries to repair my comp can? my EOM cannot wait that long.

arGGGhhhhh!

#27.Philophobia

Mechanics can be addictive :)

I love my Promos, oh yes I do love Promos!

#26. BK Breakfast

It has been so long, yet I still cannot get the fact that I wouldn't be able to get myself BK breakfast at anytime near seven on saturday mornings, into my head.

Being a official at the nationals was cool, didn't know the STF pple were than fun. :)

Lala, my computer is virused I think. There seems to be this toolbar which installs itself. Argh, rome2ng, have u heard my appeal? Haha.

So tired, music always makes me sleepy :P

心痛 -陈洁仪 (Audio)

Some music to company you for the night too :) and here is my favorite stanza:

想著你还是想到心痛期待
我做的将来你都会懂
有一天真如我有一天
但愿我还在你记忆中

Goodnight people.

#25. Its yet, another weekend.

4 weeks into promotionals. Wake up, Wendy.

Like the others, other things besides academics have been taking up most of my time. CCA, PW and the whatsoevers. I feel like I've been two steps behind other people since great-grandmothers wake, in terms of tutorials, lectures, so on.

But I believe I can make it. *I can* I can*
Haha, they say its all in the mind isn't it? :)

And know what? The good news here is that Sparring Nationals is going to take up my whole weekend starting tomorrow. Oh, very GOOD news. Say byebye to your tutorials, Wendy. :(

记得 -阿妹 (Audio)
谁还记得
是谁先说永远的爱我
以前的一句话是
我们以后的伤口
过了太久没人记得
当初那些温柔
我和你手牵手
说要一起走到最后

我们都忘了这条路走了多久
心中是清楚的
有一天有一天都会停的
让时间说真话
虽然我也害怕
在天黑了以后
我们都不知道会不会有遗憾

我们都累了
却没办法往回走
两颗心都迷惑
怎么说
怎么说都没有救
亲爱的为什么
也许你也不懂
两个相爱的人
等对方先说找分开的理由

谁还记得
爱情开始变化的时候
我和你的眼中
看见了不同的天空
走的太远
终于走到分岔路的路口
是不是你和我
要有两个相反的梦

Seriously, I prefer Derek from Project Superstar's version of the song. :)

Happy Weekend.

#24. Physics SPA

Blogging is getting boring.

Nono, maybe I should say, blogging is boring.

Now even Mechanics and Integration look more fun. :)

Duh-

#23. 李亚源

Westlife- Seasons in the Sun
Goodbye to you my trusted friend
We've known each other since we were nine or ten
Together we've climned hills and trees
Learned of love and ABC's
Skinned our hearts and skinned our knees
Goodbye my friend it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that spring is in the air
Pretty girls are everywhere
Think of me and I'll be there

We had joy, we had fun
we had seasons in the sun
But the hills that we climbed
Were just seasons out of time

Goodbye Papa please pray for me
I was the black sheep of the family
You tried to teach me right from wrong
Too much wine and too much song
Wonder how I got along
Goodbye Papa it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
Little children everywhere
When you see them, I'll be there

We had joy, we had fun
We had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song
Like the seasons have all gone
We had joy, we had fun
We had seasons in the sun
But the wine and the song
Like the seasons have all gone

Goodbye Michelle my little one
You gave me love and helped me find the sun
And every time that I was down
You would always come around
And get my feet back on the ground
Goodybye Michelle it's hard to die
When all the birds are singing in the sky
Now that the spring is in the air
With the flowers everywhere
I wish that we could both be there.

I want this song played tens of years from now one day I'm gone.

I want to study funeral rituals and traditions sometime. :)

#22. 3teen fifty2

I'm very very happy yesterday. I supposed it was the happiest day of my life since I've losted count. 2.4 km run was very good, given my own standards, I thought it was very very great and I never know I could do beyond my limits, with flying colors. :)

Now with my acadamics, I can do the same too.
Hello, Pure Mathematics @ NTU, we will meet soon, hopefully. :)

Good Morning.

#21. My Favourite Number

Anonymous: Indeed.

But I guess I'll get there. I'll try all my very best to get there, by hook or by crook, eventually.

Thanks Limin. :)

Goodnight.

#20. Cold; Mathematics

"Your first impression on me is that you're very cold.."


"I talk to you in camp hor, got the cold cold attitude.."


"You didn't eve like to open up, .... dao?"

*

I feel like crying. Mathematics always makes me feel helpless and as if the entire world has given up on me, although I love Maths very much. Doubled the helpless-ness. Sometimes I really wonder what would have come of me if I were still to be taking PCME now, that is if i were taking Chemistry instead of Further Maths. Will my life be easier? Would I feel better? Maybe I will have less tutorials, period. Everything is just as hard, given their different natures.

I guess its always those that you love most makes you very sad, isn't it?

Actually I'm quite afraid of not being able to get myself S-papers at the end of the year cos I know very well how I'm ranked and how GREAT my grades are. GP is another big headache for me cos I too know very well how lousy my sentence structures are and how my foundations (tenses, grammers, etc) flare, and worse comes when I've no big words in me to boost my essays.

Sometimes up till this stage of life, I still feel confuse and wrong. Although many many times I remind myself that I do can take things easy and everything will be fine at the very end, I still doubt myself, a lot. Precisely, because I realised that many times no matter how hard I tried, I still stay where I was, all I've done was to go round in circles, wasting precious time.

Many times, I cannot help.
I really cannot help myself.

#19. Food for Thought

Prime numbers are what is left when you have taken all the patterns away. I think prime numbers are like life. They are very logical but you could never work out the rules, even if you spent all you time thinking about them.

*

I think people believe in heaven because they don't like the idea of dying, because they want to carry on living and they don't like the idea that other people will move into their house and put their things into the rubbish.

*

Also, people think they're not computers because they have feelings and computers don't have feelings. But feelings are just having a picture on the screen in you head of what is going to happen tomorrow or next year, or what might have happened instead of what did happen, and if it is a happy picture they smile and if it is a sad picture they cry.

The curious incident of the dog in the night-time

I'm studying for the Economics test on friday now. Although Economics is my favourite subject amongst the four cos its so related to daily-life and learning it makes me feel like a fool manipulated by the monopolies, I cannot help but feel irritated when we're having tests for it once a fortnight. I like Econs test, but not that frequently for goodness' sake.

Counting down to Singapore's 40th birthday at Marina Bay last night was great. FIR and Machi was really cool and my favourite Tanya Chua was there too :) Anyway, I think fireworks are really addictive, hurhur :)

Have got to get back to my work, lalala.

Before I forget, there wil be no more tagboard and I do really feel disgusted when people steal my emoticons. :(

Goodnight.

#18. Feel the Moment.

I don't have beautiful pictures.
I don't have a beautiful template.
I don't have big words in me.

But I'm real.

*

Too many a times, we're so engrossed in capturing the most beautiful moment, we forgot to enjoy and feel it. Just like fireworks two days ago, rare view and beautiful indeed. But how many actually felt the atmosphere and enjoyed the continuous vibrant of the colors? Too many of us, precisely too afraid to lose the moment, spent the entire time restricting their view of the wonderful scenery by peeking through the camera hole, waiting for the right moment to snap. Too much attention was spent on focusing the right moment, adjusting the lighting, balancing the color that at the very end, fail to enjoy the sight and had a large collection of blur, lousy and out of focused photos.

I'm not trying to pin-point anybody or whatsoever but I found this very applicable, even to life. That is, many times in life we're too focused on something that we forgot that what's more important is to actually feel for it. Like what I'd once mention about Stefen Chow and why I'd admired him so much was because, although scaling the world's highest peak, he didn't waste his most beautiful moment away by trying hard to capture it. Instead, there were few pictures of him on the peak in his slides. He didn't forget his passion up there, the most beautiful moment. He chose to feel instead.

Even though my view that night was largely obstructed by the trees, but I feel that I've had the most breathtaking pictures around. Looking far beyond my limits, captured by my heart, because I feel them. :)

Goodnight Pals.
Happy 39th and 364th day Singapore.

#17.Birthday BOYS; my KUEHS

Only death consistently excites your emotions, whether contemplating it when life is safe and stale, or fleeing it when life is threatened and precious.

The elements couldn't be more simple, nor the stakes higher. Physically it is extraordinary arduous, and morally it is killing. You must make adjustments if you want to survive. Much becomes expendable. You get your happiness where you can. You reach a point where you're at the bottom of hell, yet you have your arm crossed, a smile on your face, and you felt you're the luckiest person on earth. Why? Because at your feet you have a tiny dead fish.

Life of Pi

Finally, I finished the book. Recommended if you like something plain, sweet and religious.
Contains elements of boredom.

The dinner, carnival, mayday, and people were good. National Library was not, even though it was damn beautiful. Too beautiful I supposed.

Oh, before I forget, Hello people. :) .

Happy Birthday to Royston and Zhenghong too.

Suddenly, I'm a lost for words although I've already planned much to say. Never mind, I'll be back again.

Yawns, Goodnight.

#16. Y S U B

B U S Y spells busy and spells me.

OMG shorter posts by the day.
I need sleep, Goodnight.

Tomorrow will be another B U S Y day.

#15. Sour

我们的故事真难忘
太多的回忆和希望
不管它有多疯狂
我愿意一生收藏

Tension, Our Story.

***

Dear old lovely Mechanics is killing me like a tender chicken right now. I've been stuck at the same tutorial, same old 5 questions for the past threee days, as so you can see how bad things can be.

Integration wasn't any better. Or in fact, worse?

Double Maths really made me felt like a dumb ass for the past few days. GRH!

I need food to supplement my brain, with double the brain cells dying, and a sour heart.
Goodnight.

#14. feAr.

I must say a word about fear. It is life's only true opponent. Only fear can defeat life. It is a clever, treacherous adversary, how well I know. It has no decency, respects no law or convention, shows no mercy... It begins in your mind, always.... Doubt meets disbelief and disbelief tries to push it out. But disbelief is a poorly armed foot soldier. Doubt does away with it with little trouble. You become anxious. Reason comes to do battle for you. You are reassured. Reason is fully equipped with the latest weapons technology....

Fear next turns fully to your body, which is already aware something terribly wrong is going on... Quickly, you make rash decisions. You dismiss your last allies: hope and trust. There, you've defeated yourself. Fear, which is but an impression, has triumphed over you. The matter is difficult to put into words. For fear, real fear, such as shakes you to your foundation, such as you feel when you are brought face to face with your moral end, nestles in your memory like a gangrene: it seeks to rot everything, even the words with which to speak of it. .. You must fight hard to shine the light of words upon it. Because if you don't, if your fear becomes a wordless darkness that you avoid, perhaps even manage to forget, you open yourself to further attacks of fear because you never truly fought the opponent who defeated you.

Yann Martel.

Fear, how apt.

Today is a brand new start for me. Me, my tutorials, and my Spapers. :)
I'll work hard.