#103. Dream, On.

I've got nothing to do so I dumb dumb go did some calculations and i found out that LSE's so damn expensive can?!

I guess I can never step in there, not even to sweep the floor part time. Its like some big 6 or 7 digit lar.(some sum i guess i'll nv see the whole of my life) Never can my dream come true also. Argh, 都说是 dream 了. Hais.

School's starting again tmr. There goes my 5 day long weekend, beautifully wasted. To think I actually wanted to revise abit for the coming fm test. Lala, happy new yr to you wendy!

Happy new yr indeed!
Goodnight everyone. 6 more hours before the next pia beings.

#102.大年初一

My fighting girls. :) We love each other.

My girls, I don't look like an ahlian!

0605:)

All that is left of 0605 fm.

More photos soon!
Goodnight!

#101. 那个 21

My windows is all fucked up again. Haiz.

在你左右还要多久
怎么样才能让时间倒流
每一分每一秒都珍重
握紧的手不愿放松
十点半的飞机它在等候
不要再让自己的眼泪流
我必须要走
要记得
我们的故事真难忘
太多的回忆和希望
不管它有多疯狂
我愿意一生收藏
我们的故事不能忘
太多的情节要发展
不要放弃因为有一天缘份会继续

Its 除夕 again. :)
新年快乐！Must Remember!

#100.The rest is shadows, the rest is secret.

"Can't you see? Every step I have taken, since I was that child on the bridge, has been to bring myself closer to you.

In that moment, I changed from a girl facing nothing but emptiness, to someone with purpose. I saw that to be a geisha could be a stepping stone to something else...a place in his world."

-Memoirs of a Geisha (Movie)

If you are a woman, you should watch it. If you are a man, you should watch it more. Afterall, its all about a girl, a girl's story of pain, loss, determination and love.

Goodnight.

#99. An intersection point.

I've come a conclusion that I'm not the only woman around with a heart and mind that cannot coincide, Doing or saying things that go against what the heart feels. Until today, this is still one problem that I cannot solve.

And perhaps this is why I still don't know why and never will.

Hai, physics test tmr.
I shall look forward to Memoirs of a Geisha. :)
Goodnight.

Maybe I will. One day, I will ask you so.

#98. 那个年除夕

God grant me Serenity to accept things I cannot change, Courage to change the things I can and Wisdom to know the difference.

This day just passes by like any other, finally.

Reality is cruel.
I'm so packed for tonight. Argh!

# 97. Man and Boy

"Of course I love you, you stupid bastard. But I'm not in love with you. Love is what's left when being in love has gone, okay? It's when you care about someone and you hope they're happy, but you're not under any illusions about them. Maybe that kind of love is not exciting and passionate and all those things that fade with time. All those things that you're so keen on. But in the end it's the only kind of love that really matters."

-Gina. Man and Boy, Tony Parsons

And this one from the same book, is pretty interesting,:)

"Thats the first law of fucking around. The unified theory of fucking around clearly states that if they do it once, they will do it again and again."

My god, I feel so bloated and sick in my head now and I still have plans for tonight. But its alright, it will be friday soon. :)

# n. Surviving.

1 econs review, a chapter of physics mcq and a few impulse questions for tonight which will end in around 3 hours time.

:)I hate thursdays but I'll hang on.
I'll kick better, I'll try.

#88. Age Loves.

I always double count my posts thus I will make a bad national income accountant.

I guess I have to believe that when one gets older, one turns to romantic love.
When everyone else has turned to love and there's no more familiarl and platonic love to talk about, one turns to romance. Cos the older says romance follows you a lifetime aside all other things that fades away.

In doubt,I will wait for that day to come, to fully realise that.

Anyway, this is funny!

You scored as Philosophy. You should be a Philosophy major! Like the Philosopher, you are contemplative and you enjoy thinking about the purpose for humanity's existence. Philosophy 75% Linguistics 75% English 75% Sociology 75% Engineering 75% Anthropology 67% Mathematics 58% Journalism 50% Art 50% Dance 42% Theater 42% Chemistry 42% Biology 42% Psychology 33% What is your Perfect Major? (PLEASE RATE ME!!<3) created with QuizFarm.com

Today is a wonderful GP day :)
Tomorrow is a better one.

#87. The Chronicles of Narnia.

I need motivation, a lot more of that.

*

Sometimes I too ask myself, what is happening, what is happening to me, my life. You say I'm deceiving myself, she says one thing, he says another. But I always believe only I know myself best and least. Enough, I know I'm nothing but an irony.

*

Fear. Its fear so terrible that it starts to eat you from inside. Fear of this, that and everything else. It brings you down, it isolates. It builds up. Soon, you become numb, theres no more pain, no more hurt, no more wounds, theres no anything. Nothing, maybe just scars. And unfortunately you can't shake these away. When everything else goes away, the scars stay, they cling onto you for life. There's no more things such as emotions and you can't turn back. No love, no hate, no trust, no happiness, no sadness, no care, no concern. No more signs of emotions either, no tears, no laughter,no anything perhaps except fear itself.

At the end of the day, everyday is a routine. You don't remember anything of today, because you're afraid of memories and them becoming memories. You return to a cell of your very own, devoid of most emotions. People admire you for what and who you build yourself to be. The Super Woman. The Super Woman from afraid of being afraid.

I don't want you to be like this cos I don't want to be a Super Woman too. All before you cannot turn back anymore...

Whyte Karyn - Super Woman
I'm not your super woman
I'm not the kind of girl that you can let down and think that
eveything's OK
Boy, I am only human
This girl needs more than occasional heart as a token of love from you
to me

Goodnight.
Believe me, tomorrow is always a better day.

#86. Yesterday's Papers.

I just keep forgetting I'm the class rep.
I do not love my class for goodness sake.

And I'm the class rep?! No, this is not possible!
Argh, just think about how fortunate i m. :(

Sleeping lectures, blank tutorials, lagged newspapers, quitting ccas, busy cca.
Hais,i love fridays :)

Its friday in 15 mins, be optimistic wendy :)

Goodnight.

#86.Past, Present, Continuous.

很久很久以前，我说过这样的一段话：

喜欢一个人，是不会有痛苦的。

毕竟那是一个自己全心全意爱过的人，说放弃并不容易。
相互之间似乎断了联系，而实际上事实存在着，
感情已经象是放飞的风筝，在空中飞翔。
收回，需要一个过程。

这收回的过程，每个人的长短都不同。
不过我们必须要坚强。

也在很久以前，有人这样对我说过一句话：

Its not up to you, but believe me, time will wash away everything... by that time, you will forget everything. somehow or another, someone else will come in and take you away.

这句话，我一直记在心中。
给有需要的你，要坚强！

晚安！

#85.Title-less

When would life be - I don't know - real again? When?

*

I need to leave my holidays by tonight.

#84. Grateful Weekends.

Rejoyce people, the weekends are here and I've just had 2 tests over today! Woohoo!

I'm like so freaked out by school can and I'm just so grateful that the weekends are here that I could actually catch up some lost sleep. However, its kinda sad cos its not like I can get school out of my mind for one second cos I've still have so much work to catch up even though I'm not a single bit involved with my darling PAE juniors.

Ok, so there is what I've in mind for the weekends:
1. 12 Econs Reflective Essays
2. Power, and Variable force tutorials
3. Descriptive Stats tutorials (tentative)
4. Re-try fm-b holiday assignments.
5. Complete Projectile and Vectors hols assignments.
6. Gp 1100 words.

I've like 5 birthday gifts to shop for too. And trainings~ lala. Grrrrrr!!!

Okok, goodnight and goodbye!

#84. New 2006

It's only the second day of college and I feel like I'm gonna 垮 just any moment. School's lousy I guess: new principal, sickening timetables that have 1h per period now. I mean, thats like 1 hr under Mr Wong's mechanics lar. Grrrrr. And Mr Ng is no longer with us for fm too, but i thought the new teacher was fine (cos she reminds me of mrs teo back in 4e4) although the class found her too demanding. haha.

Lala, now I'm rushing out the econs articles cos I just heard that the new econs tutor is no pushover. I'm dead, so dead can... 2 more tests coming up on fri lar! Arghhh, and following the training this fri, more is gonna keep me occupied.

Blahblahblah, I cannot blog more.
Goodbye.

#83.知足

这样，我就已经满足了。
有点可惜，可我真得很开心。
谢谢你有曾想过。谢谢你。

开学快乐。